At the Gate of Heaven

Happy Father's day my precious buddy at the gates of heaven. I love and miss you more each and every SECOND of every day. Happy Father's Day in the downy wings of angels, and please keep watch at that heavens gate, for when I arrive we WILL take that last walk around the yard my precious daddy. I love you forever and always and sending my prayers on sunbeams toward your presence guarding Heaven's Gate. I love you daddy, I love you. Your Buddy forever and ever.

In Honor of a Vet and PERFECT DADDY!!
From the Halls of Montezuma
To the shores of Tripoli
We fight our country's battles
In the air, on land and sea
First to fight for right and freedom
And to keep our honor clean;
We are proud to claim the title
Of United States Marine.

Our flag's unfurled to every breeze
From dawn to setting sun;
We have fought in every clime and place
Where we could take a gun.
In the snow of far-off Northern lands
And in sunny tropic scenes;
You will find us always on the job --
The United States Marines.

Here's health to you and to our Corps
Which we are proud to serve;
In many a strife we've fought for life
And never lost our nerve.
If the Army and the Navy
Ever look on Heaven's scenes,
They will find the streets are guarded
By United States Marines.


your ctrygirl BUDDY
SEMPER FI DADDY FOREVER

Happy Anniversary Baby

Happy Anniversary my precious husband....you have made me so happy these 13 years and all the years we were high school sweethearts. I don't know how I'd make it without you, I love you beyond words. You are my sunrise and sunset, my inspiration and my rock when I'm weak. You are a wonderful daddy to our children. And you are my first and will be my only love for the rest of my life. Thank you for the wonderful years together and Happy Anniversary Baby (even though written a week late....our journies under the full moon on the actual day are forever precious to me...) Thank you for understanding me when its very difficult at times to do and for ALWAYS being there for me no matter what the obstacle or issue we may face. I love you darling!

Through the dark tunnel

I'm crawling through a dark tunnel
with impenetrable walls.
It's dark in here and silent too,
except the breathing that I must do.

But, do I want to emerge into the light
for the tunnel is long and there's no end in sight?

The journey seems endless and yet the silence quite golden,
But I know I must sometime emerge and seem quite unbroken,
but without the mask that I don for others,
I’m not too sure that I won’t smother,
Beneath the armor I must portray,
And carry upon my back each day.

I hear the scratching of thoughts frantically running through my mind,
like rats when the corncrib they find.

My mask I forgot and left behind
so when I emerge I must seem refined,
just as a piece of coal pressed upon for decades
will emerge a diamond in the ruff,
I must find a way to jade the way I’m really feeling
And that will be beyond tough,
Especially without the cover of my cloak quite concealing.

So creeping ever onward I creep through the shadowed shaft,
And feel the stones pressing deep into my back,
Scarring my knees as I creep and crawl onward,
Scratching my exposed skin like a sharpened sword,
Ever I inch forward; toward the direction I know the trail must end,
And tomorrow I’ll start all over again.

Never giving up , never giving in, I must remain vigilant and keep in mind,
That if I never seek solace, it is something I’ll never find,
So keeping the pace I’ll eventually emerge from the pitch and confinement
And with hope and FAITH I’ll achieve realignment.
But for now I think I’ll just sit a bit,
And reflect in the borrow deep beneath,
Taking the time and advantage to sheath
My thoughts and myself a wee bit longer,
For hopefully soon I’ll get stronger.
And I’ll then peek out,
And see the blessings and beauty,
Breath in the fresh air,
Feel the wind in my hair,
And KNOW,
That through the stillness
Faith has grown.
Ctrygirl 6 17 09
(pic from our beautiful appalachian/allegheny area near midnight)

Keep the Faith

Hebrews 11:1
(1) Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen
In its simplest form, faith is merely belief. As our understanding becomes more complex and operative, when we begin to put faith to work, it becomes "confidence," and finally, in its best form, when it becomes fully operational, it is "trust." This trust, this full measure of faith, is alive and works within our relationship with God.

This came to my inbox and thought that it explained perfectly why we MUST keep faith in GOD, in ourselves and our direction we choose to travel, whatever path we take....and remember that putting faith to work means "confidence" in our direction.
As often I am at a loss as to "What Next?" I find that reminding myself of the fact that the Lord is ALWAYS with me offers great comfort and inspiration to keep doing my best to get day to day. We must incorporate loving our neighbor, turning the other cheek (something those inflicted with a disorder no matter how big or small, no matter mental or physical or emotional know FAR too well), and having FAITH in all things can pull us through even the lowest of lows, the highest of mania, and the comfortably numb gray area between.
(pic of our appalachian 4 wheel ride beauty in the hollers!)
ctrygirl 6-09