Listening to the Whisperings

When you hear the whispers enter into your ears,
Then maybe you can listen without tears,
Or perhaps they are pestering and staticy
Or daring, tempting or rackety,
Then you might really know what its like to be
delusional, hallucinatory, or possibly just able to see;
Past the veil that we all wear so poignantly
Claiming that we have nothing others can’t see.

But oh the skeletons are tap tapping upon the door
To show us oh so much more,
Than anyone is wiling or possibly able to admit
That they too have issues that “Fit”
The labels that they have placed upon us,
The decision that they simply MUST
Fix us and do it quick and what they claim is decently
Instead of appreciating the diversity
Lump lump lump into one single pile
Line up for the medicines and do it with a smile!

Such atrocities are prevalent even today,
Although it seems like something from ancient age
A time directly from a historical page
Where those with insight or “visions”
Were locked in the attics and basements like a prison.

Coming out of the closet is quite a task you see
For if the illness should be spread about me,
My small little town would begin that buzzing sound,
And my reputation would be bound,
To an illness that none of them can view,
But regardless they would pull away too!

Just as so many others that I thought I could trust
With the treasured secret of my psyche dust.
For many cobwebs, mist, and distractions,
Definitely affect my reactions!

Even the skeleton that I hide
Deep in the shadows of the closet’s inside,
Behind the draping clothing and mirage of collections,
Sits my bare skeleton.
Yet it too has seemed to don a mask quite vibrantly,
To keep some of its personal decency.

For judgment, stigma, ostracization,
NAH none of that could be outside its closet station.
And if it were, what then I ask?

Would it run clanking back to the task,
Of hiding itself amongst the wardrobe and donning the mask?
Unfortunately it’s the safest spot it seems,
Until society is ready for the stream,
Of realization of the power of the mind,
How bps can be ONLY one of a kind,
NO we aren’t all the same you see
Instead we are very individually…
Our own little entities just as you are too,
So judge us not until you see just exactly what amazing things we can do!

For oh it’s so hard to understand the workings of the mind,
But do you think you have it straight, and know what kind
Of thoughts, ideas, creations we face boldly in our heads,
How we face each day with determination instead
Of luxury of the peaceful mind and body?
Think again my darling, for you haven’t a clue,
Yet you’re trying is a comfort too,
So never give up the vigilant cause
Of accepting others no matter their flaws.

Take care those with the fire within,
To keep your head high and hold up that chin,
For you are a worthy soul, no different from the others,
No matter what gossip or media or the masses cover,
We know the truth, oh so deep inside,
That the path we travel is narrow yet sometimes too wide,
Just take the high road and know
That letting your true colors show,
Can only help you come to fruitation,
For you were made as a special creation….
Just as the rest, only they want to be combined,
Into a group that is rather confined.
Let your creativity flow, let the bp take its course and show,
The AMAZINGLY detailed things that we ALREADY know!

Be Aware and WATCH

This wonderful quote was passed on to me by the "gooddog" who has a blog also that is absolutely amazing in its insight and healing in the form of thoughts and how we must stay positive and ever looking for that "sun will come up tomorrow" mentality we all need so desperately.

I thought this spoke VOLUMES on how we could utilize our own internal resources and our own actions to thwart the stigmas, to stop us from outbursts of saying things we don't mean when manic, to watch what we do and how we treat others when we are going through the throws of our symptoms and often forget how we are making OTHERS feel by our actions even though it is unintentional, and how our habits DO become our character which ultimately leads to how we deal with the beast within....how we end up coping or succumbing.

I so thank the day that I met this "gooddog" and his inspirational words through yet another bp friend. I hope this is something that gives you pause, that creates an internal review basically that will inspire others to also follow the words below that he sent in his inspirational quotes.

Remember we are all responsible for our actions to OURSELVES our OWN psyche AND AND AND to how we allow the throws of bp to spur us into spending sprees, yell at someone for no apparent reason, or just curl up in fetal position to cope with the depression that overcometh.
Don't get me wrong, this is a REAL illness that is not thwarted only with thought and certainly not something we should take heed of "others" perspective of our behavior for we do NOT control the mania or the depression or all the other various sides that come with it.

I simply felt this could help so many in their own quest to understand SELF....to think on SELF behavior and actions and responses and so forth. I hope you find it as insightful as I. And again I reiterate that i do not believe only thought can remove the diagnosis but believe me attempting in various form to get control of our thoughts no matter how large or how small, and positive outlook of the glass being half full, and utilizing coping skills CAN help...of that I have personaly experienced..
NO it doesn't go away.....YES it makes it alright and manageable more so than without these words of wisdom.

I salute you gooddog!!! ENCORE!!
ctrygirl




Watch you thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; the become habits.
Watch your habits; the become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
Frank Outlaw
(sent from "gooddog"
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Spring Awakening

Spring is nearly upon us and with the changing of the seasons,
I began to contemplate the comparison and the reasons,
Of our individuality
And how our personalities
Can be compared to the winds of change the earth completes
As each season plays out; as the passing season retreats.

In spring time I see the bursting forth of foliage from beneath its soiled bed
And notice that the various types have buds upon their heads,
Just as we emerge from our winter slumbering state,
And realize the possibilities that for us await.
A coming of realization that we are full of potential and growth,
Of knowing that we should make a personal oath,
To learn and discover, to find and to seek
The internal workings of ourselves you see.
For spring is for discovery and new beginnings too
So begin the new season with a revelation becoming simply YOU.

And then we move on forward to the hot sultry days of summer,
When the grasses of the field, and the creatures of the earth march to a different drummer,
Onward we should also go; seeking the revelation of our full potential
Which is absolutely essential
Bursting with sunlight thoughts and clearness of the nighttime skies,
We should rise,
Like phoenix from the flames,
Even through the obstacles that often get in the way.

Enjoy the fiery sunsets, reflect upon the moon
Encompass the nature that encases you for it will be fleeting far too soon.
And then the TRUE colors come bursting forth to be viewed,
Can you identify YOUR true colors as the trees are forced to do?
Of course you can and keep your confidence that you’re a valued being
For through the seasons a message rings…

Listen…be silent…know thyself and come to fruitation
With a revelation
Of who you are and let none stifle your true colors my dear
For all of us are preciously unique and the season is here!!

AWAKEN….AWAKEN and emerge from that wintery bed
Learn of your inner self and stay true instead
Of succumbing to the well worn path traveled far too often
Traverse your own direction and your heart will surely soften
To allow you to accept your TRUE inner self and then,
You will be yourself, and whole once again.

Take the seasons as they come, and let them lead you too
To the inner psyche of your own mind, and let you be simply YOU!
Be careful not to judge another,
Take time to be kind to others,
and remember the foliage you see springing forth has it right,
it judges not day or night
but lives peacefully in its rooted spot
content in its own plot,
and remain its true self throughout the year without competition or fear,
take note and mirror thyself and inner knowledge of thyself will appear!
Enjoy the SPRING for it is HERE!!!

ctrygirl

"Meditate on These Things"

Phillipians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy?meditate on these things.

This is a wonderful reminder to keep thinking and contemplating on the blessings and good things in life and to create a time to contemplate on these.

As bipolar can ravage the minds, tear up one's self confidence, create havoc in an otherwise stable mind, and send one near the precipe of rogue or uncommon behavior: along with send one reeling from the throws of depression to the ravages of mania creating dissention between those who love, care, (and at times often PRETEND to care)about us; tearing relationships into shreds that often need reassembled over and over again like a puzzle thrown upon the floor:

IT IS VITAL that we contemplate on the positive,internalize the knowing of oneself....literally knowing WHO AM I? It is vital that we realize that we are no less than any other human, focusing on our assets to this world, our ever reaching hand to those in need, along with the fullness of the compassion and creativity and LOVE that bipolars so often are misconstrued to be lacking.
Let your light SHINE, let your creativity abound, and remember you are NOT a condition but a HUMAN BEING with a soul not unlike those NOT touched by the lightning within.

Stay strong my fellow BP's and know that TOGETHER we can shed the truth, the noble, the good, the lovely and praise the virtue of our paths.

Tranforming NOT Conforming

Romans 12:2
(2) And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

So many of us feel the need to "conform" and be exactly as the others amongst us; lest we be ostercized or stigmatized or outsted from the world's acceptance.

However, I realize that we must be comfortable in our own skin in order to realize that we were never meant to CONFORM but to TRANSFORM by what we input into our lives.

Think on that a second..what do you input into your life?

WHO ARE YOU INSIDE?

Can we influence our own transformations?

I personally believe if you input the positive, the creative, the uniqueness of yourself, and accept that we are all meant to be different....transformed into what WE are supposed to be and how WE perceive what is good and acceptable in compliance with God's will....then the self image of one's own life can do nothing but improve.

GO ahead and take that path less followed...and along its shadowy path, amongst its beauty and briars, you will find yourself (if you take the time to contemplate on YOU not the workings of the world, not the neighbors possessions and what you do and don't have, not the status quo of your position in society, but your inner self that you have to live with even after the working hour is over, the socialization ends for the day, the public eye retreats,

for then, and only then, are you faced with the SELF.

YET do not close off the workings of the world for even if you do not comply or conform there are those making decisions FOR you that you have no power to control, therefore you must choose the path, the direction of your own beliefs, your own true moral, ethical, and internal values.

DON"T become oblivious to the world's ways and workings, but be aware of how it influences you, and how you plan to handle such situations.
Shutting oneself off from the knowledge of current workings of one's country isn't of what I speak. For awareness is supreme in this chaotic world, yet putting one's head in the sand (for the lack of a better analogy) is NOT the answer; being PROACTIVE in your beliefs (once you reflect upon them), being a voice in the wilderness for those in need or being affected by the signature of a single man, or just simply staying knowledgeable on the activities in your lawmakers, leaders, and country IS VITAL to being able to follow your path, to being able to tread where your heart desires be it physically or in a lucid state.
AWARENESS is vital for one can not hide from the powers that be on this wordly home, and certainly NEVER from the ONLY power of our TRUE HOME.

Follow the true inner workings of your psyche and being, look closely, look deeply, and traverse your own path. Showing your true colors vividly like a bright rainbow arching over all the obstacles, hurdles, or woes and easing their impact with such intense beauty that they seem miniscule in their volume.

Just remember DON"T conform....TRANSFORM into being yourself, judge not other's chosen path, and try to love thy neighbor for their transition may not yet be complete.
Be tolerant and patient, loving and empathetic, and never loose that inner voice that leads your mind and heart down that narrow trodden path to awareness. I too must follow this advice for far too often it is easy to trip into the crevice of the judgement of others and take that as a meter to measure thyself.
ctrygirl 3/09

Think FIRST

This poem I found without note of who wrote this, so it isn't MY poem but it speaks so much truth that I felt it pertinent to my blog and how I personally feel. I hope it inspires others as it did me!

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and think: you're alive and still around

author unknown

Inspirational Quotes From the Greats

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and science." - Albert Einstein

"Imagination is more important than knowledge." - Albert Einstein

"Time and space are modes by which we think and not conditions in which we live." - Albert Einstein