Thursday, February 26, 2009

Believe in Yourself Author Unknown




I have decided to post some inspiring poems that I have collected over the years. It seems that these touching and true poems are often without a specified author. These are not MY words, but words I try so hard to practice and utilize in my life. I hope they inspire you too! (the picture is a beautiful waterfall that is close to my home where I often go to contemplate and meander through the beauty)

BELIEVE!
There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be,

....that's when you have to tellyourself that things will get better.



There are times when people disappoint you and let you down,

but those are the times when you must remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions, to keep your life focused on believing in yourself and all that you are capable of.



There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life,

and it is up to you to accept them.



Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you. It may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle you will find a stronger sense of who you are, So when the days come that are filled with frustration
and unexpected responsibilities,

Remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be, because the challenges and changes will only help you to find the goals that you know are meant to come true for you.

Keep believing in yourself. (author unknown)

Poem BEING Author UnKnown


a picture of my flowers in the spring!

Being...
It is the letting go of all the
should's, the must's, the have-to's,
the have-nots, the cannots,
the doubts and the guilt.



It is allowing your thoughts to come forth -
without judgement.



It is allowing yourself to feel -
without judgement.



It is allowing yourself to do what you want -
without judgement.



It is allowing yourself to be who you are -
without judgement.



When you allow yourself to be,
You find
Peace, Freedom, Love and Joy
Within you.



Author Unknown

Just realizing all the beauty of YOU is the best favor and treatment you can give to yourself. ctrygirl 2-09

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Phases of the Moon and YOU!


Reference to the moon phases…and how humans aren’t so different after all!
Knowing there are 8 phases of the moon…think of that for a moment and how it could easily be compared to the “phases” of our moods behaviors or state of mental awareness or awakening!


New Moon
- This stage is completely dark, completely invisible, perhaps like our “visions, voices, feelings of touch”. This is where the "hidden" aspects of a disorder or condition lurk hiding behind a mask or secluding in order to get a sembelance of understanding before revealing any aspect of the psyche, thoughts, ideas, or even trusting our own perceptions.

Waxing Crescent- Resembles the coming into some realization of our condition and leaving the quiet reflective cationic like stage where awareness is on the verge yet not quite with clarity.

First Quarter Moon (most call this the Half Moon)- A beginning of partly understanding ourselves and our situations as they roll at us, a slight perception of what “phase” or state our bodies are in at the moment.

Waxing Gibbous- This is the growing awareness comparison. During this stage the more we learn how to read our signs the more we lead toward our extreme polarities. It becomes clearer and more and more revealing as it grows with vigor toward FULL BLOWN awareness or recognition of triggers or stages we are in.

Full Moon- Complete and total awareness, (not that we can do anything about it), openness, fully ourselves (our bp selves) and the revealing of all our faults, good points, and our mind revealing our own situations like an open book….speaking fast, moving quick, or laying in a field watching the fullness of the moon’s face and trying to figure out the universe in a sense.
A comparison to when we are fully aware of our mood stage or swing, our triggers and environmental effecting factors. Basically an analogy to FULL acceptance, awareness, or recognition of what will or will not help us, get us through the day, or if in stage of euphoria how to hold on to the bliss and beauty. This is the stage of educational awareness of the disorder in a sense; for with full face on we face the hurdles and blessings alike, affront us.
Waning Gibbous- The slow descent of coming down from the mania or depression gradually dissolving away the situation the full realization took us. With masks ready to be donned and headed toward the darker side of the moon’s phases, we once again begin the reclusive descent into a darker or more secluded area of our psyche.
Third Quarter or what most call Crescent- The right of the moon gets the light first, so this is kind of like seeing the OTHER side of our lives or our brains, or our situations where we hopefully realize it’s alright. Things seem ready to ease up on our minds a little…but as is it’s nature, not for long!

Waning Crescent- The last of the reflecting light: the closing descent into our minds of deep thought, headed to complete darkness, and confusion of our situations however sometimes leading to more internal awareness…either way inevitably leading ALL toward darkness where IF utilized correctly, we can reflect and think on our current phase…becoming Proactive in our approaches to situations and conditions and prepare ourselves for the complete and total eclipse of light yet finding comfort in the inky blackness.

THEN WE FIND OURSELVES BACK TO THE COMPLETE DARKNESS OF THE NEW MOON!!! To start the phases over and over again cycling through each 291/2 days! The journey is exhilarating and enlightening, don’t let it cast a shadow but enlighten!

Never forget as you view the moon's phase that all things are interrelated in some sense or another. And that what you CHOOSE to take and see from the natural process of the moon's phases can be revealing, disturbing, comforting, blissful or just awareness unknown.
But please do not forget to glance also at the twinkling, promising stars of places yet unknown of ideas yet created, of dreams yet to be fulfilled. The ever spark like light generating from the stars above should serve as a beacon of rememberance that we are all a part of the whole, we are all given a light to face...we must simply turn our eyes, heart, and mind toward its comforting warmth!
ctrygirl 2009

Saturday, February 21, 2009

A Different Form than the Norm?



Often I find myself picking up on so many detailed aspects of ordinary things around me, and it makes me wonder, contemplate and realize that we are all, HUMANS included, diverse and original in God's design of things for a reason.
It is for this purpose and to thwart the stigmas that trail behind so many of us like an unwanted yet tied shadow, that I began to blog in the first place, along with the fact that it is a coping skill that helps me through the day(...writing, photography, nature in its finest form..NATURAL).
Through my writings I can only hope to reach out and let others know that there is NO MOLD for humankind, nor for nature as you can clearly see in the picture I included with this post.
What a boring and dull world this would be if it were the case that we found it pertinent to make all cloned into a model of what "others" may feel is the ONLY way to be, the ONLY way to look, the ONLY way to think.
Therefore, I just thought some may find my other blog site interesting or informative.
It is encompassed with helping those that may feel as if they are misunderstood or alone in their journey through this chaotic and often confusing world. Not that I have all the answers, that is for sure, but possibly, just possibly relating and realzing one is not isolated in their attempts to overcome whatever obstacles are placed before them can somehow soothe the pain, sorrow, anger, or various other aspects of a condition be it bipolar or depression.
Perhaps it will bring realization that contorting oneself to fit the "mold" isn't quite worth the effort of losing oneself in the process.

Yes, the hurdles are tall, yes the symptoms are real (far too real at times), yes the road is filled with potholes, sinkholes, and rough terrain. But it is also filled with sunbeams,moonlight,unique wildlife and foliage, stars shining up above, mysterious soothing shadows, firmness beneath our feet (which at times I know some of us feel there is a vast gaping void beneath us that we must tip toe around in order to avoid the plunge), and most of all there is a partner beside you visible or not...HE is always there, always with you down each road, over each hurdle, and healing the symptoms that often rage within (not always RIGHT when we feel it is needed but when HE in his infinite wisdom knows the exact perfect time).

I try to keep the glass half full, the positive energy flowing, and the faith that we are all facing our demons in one form or another (even if others admit it or not). Perhaps something on this other blog will reach out and help someone in someway. I hope you enjoy it.
ctrygirl


http://ctrygirlspeaks.blogspot.com/

Friday, February 20, 2009

I felt the Angel with me Today


I felt the Angel
I felt the angel’s feathered wings wrapped securely about my soul
As I wandered outward and saw my footprints in the snow,
But the angel did not leave me, nor I it’s loving embrace,
Instead it followed me undauntingly and kept up my manic pace,
It soothed my inner soul, it cooed and spoke so softly
That others all about me could not hear the whisperings from the spirit so lofty
It told me of a purpose, it told me of a plan
And never did it leave me or let go of my hand,
I needed its warm comfort, its tender touch so dearly
And the angel seemed to know that I was falling quite fiercly.

Yet no one else seemed to notice, the humans so self claimed wise
But the angel that wrapped me tightly knew what was inside,
It spoke of times a coming where I would feel no more pain and strife
It spoke to me of a moment when I would receive eternal life
Then it gave me visions, so vividly clear and precise
I could not doubt its relevance and my plummet to the vice
Of all mankind and unbelievers and how they will forget
That the Promise was for all mankind but they have a different mindset

How beautiful was its high-pitched voice,
And it gave me quite a choice,
To listen to my inner self and follow the path I’m given
Or listen to the world at large and forget about my mansion in heaven
So I chose to listen to the voice and follow the narrow path.

But so few understand or see what the angel predicted is coming
Annihilation, destruction and strife, as the drums of war are drumming,
The people have become so hardhearted, judgmental and untouched
By the WORD or by the angels although they try so much
Awakening the world they attempt each day
To the travesties and horrors they see in so many ways,
Yet the drummers keep on drumming
And the marchers keep on coming…
What is an angel to do?
But walk with me and you
And remind us of the mansion of peace and grace,
Lest we forget that special place,
That awaits us, warm in angel’s wings
I hear and will remember all these things.
ctrygirl 2008

Friday, February 13, 2009

Not just on Valentine's but ALL Through the Year



TO The Man I Love

You have made my life a wonderful dream come true,
for without you my dearest husband I wouldn't know what to do.

Although I face many obstacles your hand is always near,
to help me through the toughest of times and wipe away my fears.

Even during times when I don't fit the worldly mold,
You accept, you support, you keep my secrets untold.

When I am confused at the treatment I receive from those I least expect it,
That is when your heart reaches out and makes MINE most lit...

To get me through the ordeal, no matter the intensity or pain it brings,
for you my dear are preciously attached to my very own heart strings.

I want so much for you to know that having you beside me,
has given me so much awareness of true love,that even I often can't believe...

How much you are a part of me, and I a part of you,
and how delicately the Lord brought us together too.

I love you beyond any words that Webster has created,
and my mind and heart is FULLY saturated,

With the things I thought I'd never experience or know,
but all these things you have shown.

And now I fully realize and feel so completely blessed,
that i will not go to my eternal rest...

not knowing what it means to be loved unconditionally by a mate.
My darling husband you've reopened the gate,

to my heart and soul and as one we traverse,
forever across this universe.

I LOVE YOU DARLING!

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Moonbeams and Moondust amongst the Dark Side of the Moon




Moonbeams and Moondust
By Country girl 2008

As I look upward to the universe, a vast place
I notice a bright shining moon keeping up a pace.

Across the great expanse of the sky it moves,
Shining beautiful beams and lighting all the grooves,
Lighting the path upon which I am traveling,
Keeping me safely from unraveling,
Offering beauty and light and dreams
So poignantly bright, a lighted path it seems,
I so want to traverse up the path of beauty,
And peek at what hangs endlessly above me.

And what did I see that bright moonlit night?
A billion stars that surround its light,
A combination of encouragement and hope;
A satisfaction that it helps me to cope.

With all the daily issues that come my way,
I need the moonbeams today,
To keep my stars so visibly lit,
And walk me through this bit by bit.

For turmoil of the world quite affects me its true,
But the GOD SENT moonbeams to help us renew,
Our inner selves and keep us in awe
Of all the beauty he has created without flaw.

But there is another side of the moon we will never ever see
The Dark side of the moon, representing the key
To the fact that all things made by the creator,
Have a dimensional equator.

That pulls on our hearts and fills our minds,
With darkness and shadows, the bp kind,
Some of which we may not yet know,
Yet they are there, waiting to emerge and put on quite a show!

Just as the dark side of the moon doesn’t remove its mask
And show its face to the world, in mass
Revealing its craters, bumps and dunes,
Since mankind can only see ONE kind of moon,
The bright side of the lunar body,
Yet there is a hidden side that could disembody
The image that others hold of the nighttime light,
Instead they’d avoid it with all their might.

For it doesn’t fit the mold they adhere to
Instead it wears its mask like I do,
Only showing the world its bright positive sides,
Keeping the skeleton of rages, mood swings, & depression, it hides.

But the dark side holds the secrets so true,
It holds all the skeletons of and for you;
Hiding behind the reflection of earth,
And keeping them internally, for all its worth
To keep the mask over its darkened face,
Forever; for it is quite clever.

A smile for those who look to the heavens, to see
nothing BUT a smiling moon, but they are deceived.
It refuses to let them peak, at the darker side full of mystery
Full of ideas and ways to not repeat past history.

For even something as beautiful as the moon,
In all its glorious light, under which many swoon,
Has a dark side quite hidden from view
For a reason that is my dear, my child,
For there are things that may make it seem quite wild,
And the masses would surely never see the moon’s smile
From that point forward it would be blamed endlessly
For causing them to see,
Just a little past the light, past the shining beams
They cannot grasp and would take to extremes,
To lock it up, to hide it away
Or ignore it for a day.

Never would they understand,
That the universe as it now stands,
Is a complete mixture of light and dark,
Some you see and some leave a mark.

Of course outside the box they will not pass,
Until finally at last,
They try to harness the moonbeams bright light
Instead of letting It rule the night.

For back and forth it ever goes and yet
It is so tired at times and you can BET
Manic at other times it has to be true,
For the moon reflects so many of MY own moods.

The dark side no one knows,
Is lurking right behind the lit up face,
And sprinkling moon dust that most won’t embrace.

But as the stars shine directly overhead of the moon,
The stars understand and can see the darkness loom,
They know that at any given time
The moon could suddenly stop its climb
And make it only half way to peak stage
But the stars surround it like a cage
And protect its beauty, both light and dark
Knowing that the two shall never part,
But instead be as one forever more,
And visible from sea to shining shore.

But only the stars will understand,
When the moon don’t want to show its full hand,
And directly at guard they will be
To keep the moonbeams shiny as can be.

There’s a darkness from rising or turning about
So no one can see what it’s all about.

This good vs. evil upon mother earth
Is rampid and judgmental (not to even mention the worst)
Of what mankind can say and do
To make the dark side of the moon untrue
And yet it is a law not a theory,
That caused the discovery of this but they are still leery.

The Stars above hanging out with the moon,
Will know that it won’t be long, it will be soon
That the stars will need the moons encouragement too
And together they can thwart what others thought they KNEW.

Instead hand in hand they keep their place,
Like partners over the night time sky,
For should the moon ever start to cry,
The stars would turn the tears into dewdrops upon the land,
And utilize its dark side, and take a stand!

For the moon will return the favor one day,
When humans try to stray
From realizing there is a struggle between good and evil, a night and a day,
And without the moon and stars up above,
The world would be quite absent of love.

So moonshine, keep shining that beautiful face,
Know that the stars are right in their place,
Close enough to reach out and touch,
Close enough to dry the tears no matter how much.

For they know dearest moonshine of the worth,
Of a friend and a light source upon this earth,
You are the ruler of the nighttime sky;
And what you see so far above has to make you cry.

Therefore the dark side of the moon is quite beneficial
For it shows the universe that nothing is superficial,
That we need the dark to appreciate the light
And the stars will be beside the moon day or night,
Ready to catch a moonbeam or two,
Or reach out to seek comfort from its sunny side too.

But sharing the night sky is a wonderful treat
And stars shine brightly in their chosen seat
Beside the ever changing face of the moon,
Just to let it know, and let it know soon,
That it is loved, both light and dark
Nothing can change that, for the stars will never part
From their celestial position and guardian of light
And for their friends they’d gladly fight,
Right up to the end together they’ll be
Forever and ever look overhead and you’ll see.

I love ya moonshine…even the moon dust holds magic ya know!!

Friday, February 6, 2009

Count and Look UP


"and lo and behold I DID look up and realized our home was arched with THE PROMISE" (this is taken at my home from my front yard before a bad storm)


This poem was given to me and I thought it far to precious to inpsiring not to share. The person who gave it to me didn't know the author....but it is how we all should face each day.


Count your blessings instead of your crosses:
Count your gains instead of your losses:
Count your smiles instead of your tears;
Count your health instead of your wealth:
Love your neighbor as much as yourself.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Windows to the Soul that ONLY a True Love can Know





Dedicated to my wonderful husband who has endured so much with, for, and beside me through all trials, tribulations, and odd situations. He is the LOVE of my life and has always been; perhaps this brief attempt at a poem will explain just how much he does mean, and how he can see "behind the mask" and accepts me for who I AM. I LOVE YOU MY DEAR!
Ctrygirl 1/09

Not only to the Soul

Through YOUR eyes I see so much,
Such trying, such love and a PERFECT human touch,
Yes, all that is in your look,
Believe it or not, never or tomorrow, but I can read you like a book.

There’s too much invested so deeply there
We’re talking my heart, my mind, my body and soul here.

Nothing to your eyes has ever compared,
Ever, no matter how hard I dared.

That TRUE love and compassion will never ever be found in another,
For your eyes have spoken to me, and in my heart ALWAYS hovered.
.
I see it my dear, I really really do,
But know that I don’t know WHY it’s coming from you.

WHY and HOW and HOW LONG can you show this deep-seated love?
Or are you destined to me from above?

I look into the windows quite often, even when they are closed
I watch them when open, and watch them when you doze.
They fascinate me to see my own reflection there,
And wonder, just why does he DARE
To love someone like me, someone quite flawed you see
Who evidently can’t show him how deeply HE is loved by ME!!

It’s as if I feel a PART of him, a limb just not permanently attached,
But tethered together, and if you ask me we perfectly match.

But HIS opinion, oh it means so much
And deeply my heartstrings they touch.

And go for the windows….
The windows as they are lifted of the blinds,
The windows that show what all is behind.

Does he look as deeply into mine? I can’t help but wonder,
And if he does, does he see things asunder…
Does he read the mental notes upon the floor,
Does he open that ever-closed door?


These eyes have seen things,
They have known things are there
When others were oblivious to the presences everywhere.

Never a word was spoken between
My precious love when he also has seen,
The obvious glazing or intense stare,
When I look to things others say aren’t there.

They have envisioned the past with the touch of a finger,
And closed softly so the memory of it could linger.

They’ve seen sorrow, misery, and pain,
But they’ve also see happiness, love, and gain.

They have looked down and then upward toward heaven for answers,
But curiosity inside them grows, education like a cancer,
Eating slowly at the mind behind these eyes,
For they have seen things past and present die.

Sadness fills the empty black space within, deeply embedded
Forever to it they seem wedded.

The mask doesn’t hide the eyes, don’t you find that absurd,
For everything can be SEEN but not heard,
Therefore what is the point of the mask?
If it doesn’t hide the whole point of it’s task???

But he knows, if he looks as deep as I hope
Then he too will see how hard it is to cope.

He sees my efforts; he’ll see my love so intensely deep,
And know that I am the woman he wants to keep….
In spite of the things he seems to endure,
Things to me that must be obscure,
For oh I try so hard to be the best wife I can be,
To the man that has always been a part of me.
Just look in the windows and you will see…

But be prepared;
For if you dare,
You may not see the things my love can detect,
Instead you may encounter MANY defects.

But know that his love sustains me and encompasses me so,
That nothing can penetrate or alter the LOVE that I know.

So many don’t have such a resource or intense love
So therefore I MUST believe he is sent from ABOVE.

And for that I’m eternally grateful and blessed,
For without him I’d surely be feeling much less,
Than a person who deserves love and care,
But the Lord sent me an angel with which to share.